Tuesday, September 30, 2014

A Request From God

A Request From God

I have become comfortable in my communication with God. I ask questions, he answers. If I am venturing off course, he shows me the way back. This is how it has gone since I gave him my life. 
Yesterday, however, he took me by surprise.  He changed our routine.  He ask me to relay a message to someone else. 
"Wait God,this is not how we do this. We communicate with each other.  We don't bring other people in."  is what I said to Him.  "We do now."  is what he replied.
This request is a little out of my comfort zone.  I have to say, I was nervous.  I started to doubt.  Am I really worthy to handle this?  How will the other person react when I tell them I have a message from God.  I started picturing hospitals and straight jackets in my future.  Except for my husband and those of you who read this blog, I have not shared with anyone that God talks to me.  That's about to change.  God wants me out of my comfort zone, so hear I go.
I feel like this is just the first step in a bigger plan that God has chosen for me.  I can't wait to see what is next.

Monday, September 29, 2014

My Bible Phobia

My Bible Phobia

I have posted before, that I bible issues. It is not that I don't like or believe in the bible. I do. It is God's word. The problems I have are in the interpretations. It is very hard for me to understand and I am a pretty intelligent person. Reading the bible for Answers to basic questions were a challenge. Using it for today`s issues, I don't know if or how to go there.

So my action plan for dealing with the bible issues have been basically, to put it aside and go to prayer for answers.
I talk to God, he answers me. I believe this is even better than reading the bible. We have great communication. I heard him very clear when he told me to get a bible and read. Apparently He does not like my action plan.

So...I ordered a NLT, pink Bible!

I am excited to see what he shows me.

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Disciples of God

Disciples of God

We are all disciples of God. Some may be resistant disciples. Some may be struggling disciples. Some may not even realize what they are. There are a few, however, that are special.  Pure disciples, is what I guess I would call them.

They are full of pure love for God.  They radiate love from God.  People are drawn to them.  Just being with these disciples, you feel good. You can feel God's love.  Have you ever met someone that you can just feel the pure goodness is them? 

This is what I strive to be. This is what we all should strive to be. I want to be so full of God's love, that I radiate it to everyone around me. 

This is what I believe God wants us all to be.  The struggles that we face in life, are meant to shape us and teach us how to become a Pure disciple. 

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Blessed for being a Christian

Blessed For Being A Christian

I had a Facebook friend post a status that started "I don't believe in God" He then went on to say his family was going through a lot of problems and he ask if those of us who did believe in God, would pray for his family.  OK...  This post has been on my mind for a few days, thus this post. 

There are people that believe that Christians are blessed with a great life.  I have to admit, when I started back to church it was because my life was a mess and I wanted the golden ticket that God gave Christians. I wanted the perfect, easy life that God blessed Christian's with. What I got, was harder struggles.  But, it was through those struggles that I met God.  I am a Christian and I struggle daily with life.  Christians have the same, maybe harder, struggles as non Christians. The difference between them is Faith.   I don't know what lies ahead of me, but I have Faith that whatever it is, it is meant to be. There is a reason for everything.  I may not understand, but I know that I don't need to. God sees the big picture. He knows what we need for the big picture.  

We have the same mess and the same struggles.  I don't have a easier life. I have Faith. 

Thursday, September 18, 2014

A New Generation of Christians

A New Generation of Christians

I was reading an article about how Christianity has changed over the years. This got me thinking. Christians between the ages 30 to 50, are different.  The main difference, I think, is that we put more importance of having a relationship with God and less importance on religion. I use the term "Messy Christians"  We know we are not perfect and at times our lives get messy. But, we also know that God doesn't expect or even want us to be perfect. He just wants to have a personal relationship with us.  He uses our mess to do this.

Our generation focuses more on the New Testament. We see God as a loving Father, not as a God to be feared.  We have problems in our lives. We sin. We are messy. We fail God many times. We don't believe that our sinning is okay, but we know we are human. God doesn't condone our sin, but he will forgive us for it when we ask.

We don't go to church out of fear, or because God says we have to. We go to church to feel closer to Him.  We don't preach the bible as much as the older generation.  I think our generation has issues with the bible, especially the Old Testament. We believe it is God's word, but It was written by men.   It is also interpreted differently from person to person and religion to religion.  It's all the different Interpretations that has cause our generation to have some issues with the Bible. It is hard to understand, thus the different interpretations. I know personally, that I don't want anyone quoting scripture after scripture to me. I just want want to have a discussion about God.  Is the bible important? Of course. But sharing the things God has done in our lives, that is the Gospel which shows others his loving power. Giving your personal testimony is more powerful and real, then quoting scripture.

The bible tells the story of God and His son. It is very important to know the story. But people now need to be reminded that He is still here and He is waiting for you to ask him into your life and accepting Jesus as your savior.  Letting people know that It doesn't matter about the mess in their life. God loves them anyway.  That is what our generation Is about.
Showing the world our God.

Monday, September 15, 2014

Waiting for Direction

Waiting For Direction

I know God has a specific plan for my life.  He has a plan for all our lives. I know that he will reveal his plan when its time. I know I should wait patiently, but I am having a hard time. I feel  a little lost right now.

I have prayed about it and He tells me I am not ready. I think deep down I knew that.

I have a bad habit about jumping the gun on things. I get an idea and jump in feet first. I sometimes "do" before I "think". This can get me into trouble. I have learned from these lessons that praying for God's desire, is the only way to make decisions in my life.

So I am going to live in the present and wait for God to show the way. 

Sunday, September 14, 2014



I read a post from a Christian blogger that I had been following and I was very disappointed. The post was condemning homosexuality. It basically said they were going to hell. The comments from people cheered the writer on and bashed gays and lesbians for ruining the world.

God is very clear about what he wants from us, his children. Love others as he loves us.  He doesn't put in conditions on who to love.  He also is clear about not judging others. This will be his job. 

Being a Christian, we have an a obligation to act like His child. We are told to spread his word and show his love. Judging others, in His name is shameful.  Bashing others because they believe something that you do not, and telling them they are ruining the world is persecution. 

We are not God

Friday, September 12, 2014

Where Are The Miracles

Why Does God Not Perform Miracles Anymore?

I hear people ask this a lot, usually while trying to disprove God`s existence.  They question why He hasn't shown us the amazing miracles he performed for his disciples, as told in the bible. 

Yesterday was 9/11. The threat of another terrorist attack was pretty high this year considering what is happening with the ISIS.  Thankfully there was no attack. Our lives are going along as normal.  

Now think about this.

 What if...
There was a plan to attack us.  It was a perfect plan that we could not prevent.   The attack would destroy our country and change all of our lives forever. But, before the terrorist could execute their plan, something happened.  Something unexpected happened that stopped their perfect plan of attack and we were saved from an unimaginable devastation.  

Life is going on as normal. Nothing happened to change it.  Were we lucky or was it something else?   I personally don't believe in luck. 

Miracles happen everyday. Sometimes they are witnessed, but majority, we never even know about. Just because you haven't seen a miracle, doesn't mean your life hasn't been touched by one. 

God may not ever part the sea for us.  But, do we really need the sea parted?  

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Not My Monkey, Not My Circus

Not My Monkey, Not My Circus 

 Everyone has an opinion and that is normal. The trouble is some people believe it is there duty to spread their opinion around. These people also believe that their opinion and beliefs are the only right one. Well it makes me upset and now you are going to hear my opinion.

 I don't care. Its not my circus! It's not my place to judge same sex marriages. I am not in one!  Its not my place to discriminate against other races or religions.  I am not even an expert in judging my own life. It is God's job.

 It floors me when someone claims to be a Christian yet tells someone they won't go to heaven because they live a different lifestyle. You don't know who God will choose to come to his kingdom!  I do believe God wants us to be his disciples. He wants everyone to know him. He wants his word shared, not our opinions.  God wants us to love everyone like He loves us. He does not discriminate.

 I think that some people can be "too christian".  That's when their opinions, not God's, become what is important to them. I have family members that have become "too Christian" and it makes me sad.

 Your circus is between you and God. Don't worry, he hung around a colorful group. Know Him, love Him, and have faith in Him. He will take care of the rest. Let only God lead you. No one else is worthy. when you catch yourself giving out opinions against someone remember:  Not my circus, not my monkey

Chats With God

Chats With God

Well I mentioned before that  God talks to me. Before you ask, I'm not crazy. Well I may be crazy but talking to God isn't the crazy part. It is actually the most sane part of my life sometimes.

I did not believe in God for many years. Then a few .years ago I went though some painful times and I started spiraling down. He reached out earlier, I heard him but I still didn't believe so I didn't listen.   The further down I went I still heard him. I hit the bottom and then l listened. I met God on my way back from hell. He choose me for some reason. So I am his.  I will go where he leads. 

I am still flawed. I sin.  I am just a mom and a wife. My house is a wreck and I'm a procrastinator. But I can talk to God and he answers back. I know him and he is more amazing then I could have ever imagined. 

Life is Bumpy

Life Is Bumpy

"Why does God let bad things happen?"

 I hear people ask this all the time, so I want to talk about it.

 First, let me say that I have faith in God and his plans so I don't question him.  For those that are asking, Here is what I can tell you.  First, God gave us life and free will.  It is the actions of people that cause most of the "bad things".  Second, Our plan is not God's plan. Sometimes it is hard to understand why we loose loved ones, but God sees the bigger picture. As for the struggles that we endure along the way, they are just life, but God uses those struggle to prepare us for the path that is planned for us.

Life is bumpy, but that is what makes life amazing too. Sometimes it takes a little bad bumps to see the really good this that we might otherwise miss.

It God brings you to it, he will get you through it.  There will always be pain and loss. That is life. Just remember you can't see what God can.

God's Messy Child

God's Messy Child

What is a Christian?  Do Christians go to church every Sunday, memorize the Bible, and try to be perfect for God?  I'm sure some do. I don't make it to Church as much as I would like, I struggle with the bible in many ways,  and I am not even close to perfect. I am a Christian. I'm am just messy. 

I have a special relationship with God. I gave my life to him. I trust him completely, and I love him beyond words. I am, however, messy.  I'm sure he shakes his head at me quite often. Sometimes, I probably make him laugh at my stupidity at times. I make him cry too. This breaks my heart.  

Through it all he loves me. My mess keeps us close. It is how we met. 

I'm not sure if God talks to everyone or just to some. I just know he talks to me.  It is hard sometimes, being the problem child, I am not always still. I don't listen for him like I should. I'm learning and he is patient. I will get better. 

This blog is about life, God, and my journey with both. Some will be my words and some will be God's. I can't promise what you might find, but promise it will be real, raw, and not boring. 

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

We should have no fear

We Should Have No Fear

 I was having a procedure done that I was really stressing about because it was supposed to make you kinda sick.  So, I prayed that God would help me get through it without being sick.  It then got me thinking. Why do I fear anything if I trust in God? He loves me.  If he guides my life, what is there to fear? He will not give me more then I can handle.  I did not worry about the procedure again.  

 When I got to my procedure, I found out that they changed the way it was performed and it no longer made anyone sick.  See, he takes care of us.

 I feel comforted knowing my father walks with me.  He answers my prayers. He will never give me more than I can handle.

 I have nothing to fear in life.