Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Im Broken and my life forever changed

I'm broken and my life forever changed 

 There are moments in your life that will change you. There are also moments that will changed you forever.   These moments are like storms. They beat  you up,  throw you around,  and inflict tremendous pain.  But when the storm is over,  you will walk out a completely different person.   The old you,  will be gone.   You will be stronger, smarter, and tougher.   You will be ready for the path God has chosen for you.

The reason I have not written in a while, is that I'm in the middle of my own storm.   My husband and I were in a bad car accident.   I broke my hip,  had a brain bleed,  and lost the love of my life.   I could not walk for three months,  and I wanted my husband back.   

One minute I was a wife and the very next minute I was a widow.  I have never experience something this hard even with the death of my parents.   I have a broken life and my future is gone.   I am terrified,  lonly,  and heartbroken. 

My husband's journey is over and God took him home.   I am left to finish my journey alone.   Even though I am so broken right now,  I trust in God.  He has the bigger plan.  See my journey here.
I know that he has a new future for me.   It still makes me sad that I won't be sharing that future with my husband, but apparently I'm not supposed to.

I never questioned God's decision to take my husband.  I grieve for him and I wish he was still with me,  but God took him for a reason.  I don't need to know why,  because I trust God completely.  That is how I'm getting through.

 Tim loved life.  He was put into mine and my children's life for a reason.  He changed us. He fulfilled his purpose in life and he was given his reward.  He went home.

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