Tuesday, August 12, 2014
I just found this blog today. The author talks about the importance of living in the moment. For me, that is the only way my life works. I learned that lesson the hard way. If you spend time worrying and stressing over things, eventually your life will start to spiral out of control. I know from experience. I finally learned that in order to hear God's plan, I had to live in the moment and let him show me the way. Life is so much easier this way.
Saturday, August 9, 2014
Lessons Learned along the Way- part 2
In this second part, I wanted to share the more personal changes and not as much of the spiritual side as was in the first part.
This was my life prior to my "downward spiral": it was stressful and chaotic. I worried over things I had done. I worried over the future. I let everything effect the personally. I held grudges. I had to get even If wronged. I needed control. My head, marriage, family, and life was so hard. But then, it crashed and the woman who walked out of the ashes, was not the same one that walked into the fire. Pain changes you. It also takes dealing with the real big stuff to show you how stressing over the things that really don't matter or can't he changed, is crazy. I refuse to stress over anything.
Worry is something else I am doing without. You can't change the past, let it go. The future is not even here yet. Let go of worry, grudges, and hurts. Live for the moment. Nothing else matters. God's got my life.
Forgive. God says if he is to forgive us and bless us, we have to forgive everyone. That was a little challenging, but when I did forgive, It was amazingly freeing.
Now that my life is calm and simple, God is able to show me so much more. I can see so much more. I had been missing a lot. I want to go through the rest of my journey with my eyes wide open and no distractions. Now I know that I will still stumble but I will just pick myself up, brush of the dirt, and move on.
Lessons Learned Along the Way
If you have read my other entries, You know I have had a hard journey over the last few years. It has been the hardest time in my life. It has also provided me with powerful, life changing lessons.
Out of chaos, I learned to overcome stress.
From those who hurt me the most, I learned to forgive .
Insecurity is teaching me to stop worrying
Letting go, is showing me faith
It took being in a place of such pain for God to show me so much love and understanding.
I saw a post on my Facebook from a friend who said, "God is real, he answered my prayers.'' I felt bad for her because she doesn't understand. When we pray, we are
asking for what we want, not what God wants. This was hard for me. I prayed so hard for God to fix all the struggles in my life. I remember wondering why he wouldn't help me. I didn't know at the time that was exactly what he was doing. His way.
I still have struggles but I learned to let go. I have Faith. My Life is in God's hands. When I let go, all the stress, and worry was gone. That was God's blessing.
Do I wish I hadn't had to experience so much pain and loss ? No. I truly know I went thought it for a reason. I need the lessons that it brought me. God bought me to it, and through it. He guides my journey.
Read part 2 - the effects of what i learned and how it changed my life.