Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Conversations with God

Conversations with God

 Being able to talk to God and having him answer me is the best part of my relationship with God.  This is why I am going to write about it.  I have to say, it makes me a little nervous.  I can still remember what I used to think about people who would say they talked to God.  I thought they were either lying or crazy.  So know, that I know, I will be the crazy lying woman to some of you and that is okay.  I am still going to tell you about it because it still, and probably always will, amaze me.

My son ask me what is it like when God talks to you.  The best way I could describe it was like this:  When you are trying to solve something and you just can't figure out the answer.  Then all of a sudden the answer comes to you.  It is similar to that.  It may not be right away.  You may have to struggle and pray,  I think He waits until you are ready to hear His answer.  When He does answer, you will know it is from him.

To hear God, I am learning to just be quiet and wait.  This is a hard lesson for me because I have always been one to jump in feet first without thinking.  But that does not work out to well for me.  So now, I am trying to just be quiet and wait.  The answers will come when He thinks I am ready to hear.

Prayers are slightly different.  He does answer your prayer but first you have to learn how to pray.  God knows the big picture.  We only see our picture.  Unanswered prayers are unanswered for a reason.  Now don't get me wrong you can pray for anything, but just trust that the answer may not be what you want but it is what God needs for you.  That is hard for me sometimes but I just remind myself that God knows the big picture.

Now for all of you that just don't believe, I challenge you to do one thing.  Even if you don't believe in God,  just close your eyes and say this prayer "Dear God, show me you exist"  If you are quiet and listen, he will show you.   You won't loose anything by trying, but you just might gain something wonderful. 

Am I a Christian?

Am I a Christian?

What exactly is a Christian?  When do I know if I am one?  I have been having trouble with that word.  I think the problem comes from before I met God.  I would hear people say they were a Christian and It made me feel like they were bragging, that they had something I would never have.  Maybe I was jealous.  They were happy and I was not.   They did have something, they knew God.

So am I now a Christian?  I looked up the word "Christian" and basically it is a group of people who loved God and believed that Jesus is the son of God.  It did not say you have go to church every Sunday, or read the bible every day.  I am a Christian because I love God and I accept Jesus Christ as his son and my savior.

Being a Christian is something to be happy about.  I will never be alone.  I am a child of God and he will never leave me.  I don't have to be perfect, I just have to believe.  By saying I am a Christian, I am not bragging, I am proudly stating that I am a humble servant of God and I give my life for him to use as he needs. 

I am a Christian.

Meeting a Stranger

Meeting a Stranger

Growing up, I went to church.  I thought I knew God.  Then I grew up and He became a stranger.  After collage, I did not even believe in Him. 

Years later, as I headed for a train wreck in my life, I heard Him whisper.  I did not listen.  Next I heard him talk.  I still did not listen.  I heard, yet i still did not believe.  He finally shouted.

I should have paid attention to the whisper.

The train wreck was awful.  I lost a lot.  It was excruciatingly painful, but I heard him.  Although I regret the pain I put my family through, I don't regret the pain I went through.  I needed to go through it.

Through my grief I met God. 


My Blog with God

My Blog with God

Everyone has their own relationship with God.  Mine is probably not what Christians claim to have.  It is though, probably what most Christians really have.  That is why I am writing this blog.  I am not a good Christian.  I am flawed, broken, and totally in love with God.  I also know that this is what God expects.  My lack of perfection and need for guidance, is what creates my relationship with Him.

I  don't go to church every Sunday.  I love going to Church, but sometimes I just want to stay in bed.  I can't quote passages from the bible.  The truth is I don't understand a lot of what it says.  If I would go to church more, I would probably understand more.  This is the reason that I am trying to improve my attendance.  It is not that I fear God will be mad.  I want to know more about the God I love. 

I am also not afraid of being a sinner.  He knows I am a sinner.  I can't be perfect, only he is perfect.  I remember hearing when I was younger that if you sinned, you would go to hell.  Really?  Then hell is going to be awful full. 

My life is an ongoing journey with God.  I am writing this blog to share that journey.  It is not going to be a lot of scripture and preaching.  It is truthful, good and bad.  If you are easily offended, this may not be the blog for you.

Whatever happens along the way there is one thing that will never change:  I love God with my whole heart and he is first in my life.  Where he leads, I will follow.