God's Messy Child

God's Messy Child

What is a Christian?  Do Christians go to church every Sunday, memorize the Bible, and try to be perfect for God?  I'm sure some do. I don't make it to Church as much as I would like, I struggle with the bible in many ways,  and I am not even close to perfect. I am a Christian. I'm am just messy. 

I have a special relationship with God. I gave my life to him. I trust him completely, and I love him beyond words. I am, however, messy.  I'm sure he shakes his head at me quite often. Sometimes, I probably make him laugh at my stupidity at times. I make him cry too. This breaks my heart.  

Through it all he loves me. My mess keeps us close. It is how we met. 

I'm not sure if God talks to everyone or just to some. I just know he talks to me.  It is hard sometimes, being the problem child, I am not always still. I don't listen for him like I should. I'm learning and he is patient. I will get better. 

This blog is about life, God, and my journey with both. Some will be my words and some will be God's. I can't promise what you might find, but promise it will be real, raw, and not boring. 

My Blog with God

My Blog with God

Everyone has their own relationship with God.  Mine is probably not what Christians claim to have.  It is though, probably what most Christians really have.  That is why I am writing this blog.  I am not a good Christian.  I am flawed, broken, and totally in love with God.  I also know that this is what God expects.  My lack of perfection and need for guidance, is what creates my relationship with Him.

I  don't go to church every Sunday.  I love going to Church, but sometimes I just want to stay in bed.  I can't quote passages from the bible.  The truth is I don't understand a lot of what it says.  If I would go to church more, I would probably understand more.  This is the reason that I am trying to improve my attendance.  It is not that I fear God will be mad.  I want to know more about the God I love. 

I am also not afraid of being a sinner.  He knows I am a sinner.  I can't be perfect, only he is perfect.  I remember hearing when I was younger that if you sinned, you would go to hell.  Really?  Then hell is going to be awful full. 

My life is an ongoing journey with God.  I am writing this blog to share that journey.  It is not going to be a lot of scripture and preaching.  It is truthful, good and bad.  If you are easily offended, this may not be the blog for you.

Whatever happens along the way there is one thing that will never change:  I love God with my whole heart and he is first in my life.  Where he leads, I will follow.