Im Broken and my life forever changed

I'm broken and my life forever changed 

 There are moments in your life that will change you. There are also moments that will changed you forever.   These moments are like storms. They beat  you up,  throw you around,  and inflict tremendous pain.  But when the storm is over,  you will walk out a completely different person.   The old you,  will be gone.   You will be stronger, smarter, and tougher.   You will be ready for the path God has chosen for you.

The reason I have not written in a while, is that I'm in the middle of my own storm.   My husband and I were in a bad car accident.   I broke my hip,  had a brain bleed,  and lost the love of my life.   I could not walk for three months,  and I wanted my husband back.   

One minute I was a wife and the very next minute I was a widow.  I have never experience something this hard even with the death of my parents.   I have a broken life and my future is gone.   I am terrified,  lonly,  and heartbroken. 

My husband's journey is over and God took him home.   I am left to finish my journey alone.   Even though I am so broken right now,  I trust in God.  He has the bigger plan.  See my journey here.

I know that he has a new future for me.   It still makes me sad that I won't be sharing that future with my husband, but apparently I'm not supposed to.

I never questioned God's decision to take my husband.  I grieve for him and I wish he was still with me,  but God took him for a reason.  I don't need to know why,  because I trust God completely.  That is how I'm getting through.

 Tim loved life.  He was put into mine and my children's life for a reason.  He changed us. He fulfilled his purpose in life and he was given his reward.  He went home.

 

My blog to my husband is

www.howisheaven.wordpress.com

Understanding Faith

Understanding Faith

As Christians, we use the word Faith often.  Have  you really thought about what a powerful gift it is and what it means?  Faith is a gift from God, that we receive when we give our lives to him.  It is the most amazing, powerful and loving gift that we will ever receive.  With Faith, our lives change.  

Faith gives us strength, knowledge, and peace.  It also take away worry, doubt, and fear.   With Faith, we don't have to worry about our lives.  We don't have to worry about struggles or the future.   We no longer need to fear.   Can you think of a better gift then that?

Faith does not mean we will have a perfect life.  We will still have struggles. My biggest struggle shook me too the core.  Read my story.  Faith is knowing that struggles are a part of life but if they are brought to us, we are made to overcome them.  God will not bring us to it, if we can't get through it.  With Faith, we are able to follow the path God has chosen for us.  The path that leads to a happiness and joy that only God can give us.   Without faith, we could not find this path.  

This is what Faith really is:  Completely letting go of your life and your control over it.  Giving it to God to use it however he needs to.  Your life is his, not yours.  He has a bigger plan.

If you haven't  given your life to God and received this gift, it might sound a little scary.  Let me tell you, when you do give him your life and you receive the gift of faith,  you will feel no fear.  You will feel a sense of peace and comfort that you have never felt before.

I know when I start to stress over something, that I am trying to drive my own life.  I just give it back to God and the stress is gone because I have faith that God knows the road.  

I Gave God My Life

I Gave God My Life

The first time I heard God speak to me, I was in awe of Him.  I knew that I never wanted Him to leave me.  He has held me through my worst times.  He has wiped many tears.  He has patiently watch me try to handle my own life, which is usually a disaster.  

I realized that I cannot drive my own life. I made the decision to give my life completely over to God.  I want him to use me as he needs.  

It doesn't mean that I won't face struggles.  This does not promise me a smooth path to heaven.  It means that I trust God.  I no longer have fear in my life.  He knows where I need to be and how to get me there.  It is not about me.  It is all for the Glory of our Father.  

The struggles I am to endure, are there to mold me into the person He needs me to become.  

I do not fear whatever is on the path that God has chosen for me because it is only this path that brings true happiness. 

A Request From God

A Request From God

I have become comfortable in my communication with God. I ask questions, he answers. If I am venturing off course, he shows me the way back. This is how it has gone since I gave him my life. 

Yesterday, however, he took me by surprise.  He changed our routine.  He ask me to relay a message to someone else. 

 

"Wait God,this is not how we do this. We communicate with each other.  We don't bring other people in."  is what I said to Him.  "We do now."  is what he replied.

 

This request is a little out of my comfort zone.  I have to say, I was nervous.  I started to doubt.  Am I really worthy to handle this?  How will the other person react when I tell them I have a message from God.  I started picturing hospitals and straight jackets in my future.  Except for my husband and those of you who read this blog, I have not shared with anyone that God talks to me.  That's about to change.  God wants me out of my comfort zone, so hear I go.

 

I feel like this is just the first step in a bigger plan that God has chosen for me.  I can't wait to see what is next.